To The Army Wife I Wronged

Dear Hurt Military Spouse, 

        I know it has been a long time sense I have really talked to you. That the last time I half ass attempted it was well in all honestly it was just lies. I was not sorry for how I treated you in any way. I did not feel as if I had truly done anything wrong at that time. I felt that I was in the right as I had just been trying to live my own life. I thought that the dead beat I was with was someone that there could be a future with. Thus I needed to make him happy above all others. I know now how really wrong I was back then. I never thought I would be saying these words as I hadn't thought of you in so long. 

      Yet here I sit understanding more than ever the pain I caused you. The way I threw you off to the side as if you were not worth being a true friend to. I am truly sorry for my actions back then and I wish that I could have a do over. I wish I could go back in time and we could just shake it off and go back to being friends. I had no idea what you were going through at that time and how hard it really is to be a Army Wife. I thought you were just trying to keep me from being friends with anyone else or having a relationship of my own. 

        I know now that I will never get the chance to say I am sorry and fix that broken friendship. However I wish to stop everyone from making the same mistake I made. Being a new Army wife or a Military wife at all if hard. It means that you need to make friends every where you go. Even if you have the best friends in the world " back home"  or at the last duty station you were at. You still need to move forwards and make more friends where ever this crazy life takes you. I failed to be a good friend but there were many reasons why that was. It was not because I am a bad friend or because I simply didn't not care. It was just that I felt like I was less than you. I felt like I didn't have money to blow or time as I had wanted to make sure. That my house was clean, and dishes were done. That there was something to eat and that everything was as it should be. That is what I felt was most important at that time. 

      I wish that I could go back in time and ask you what was going on in your life. What it was like to be a Military Spouse and why you seemed to always want people around you all the time. Maybe then I would have known more about this life and what I was getting into the day after my wedding day. However sadly we can not change the past. All I can do is hope that with this very public letter someone will not make the same mistake. I hope that someone will learn to ask what is going one. To be there for a new wife even if we think we know what is going on in her life. To put our selves out there and try to make some new friends even if we are scared to death. 

        Sometimes being a Military Wife is harder than I thought it would be. Sometimes we just need to suck it up and be a friend to someone who needs one even if she will not admit she needs one. 
Help is something that we all need but few of us are brave enough to ask for it. 



                                            Never Ending Lost Girl, 
                                                        Mrs.M