Thursday, December 31, 2015

New Year New Plan!



2015 
was all about:

 Our family

Starting our home school Journey

Having a baby

learning what its like to be together as a family.

It was filled with ups and downs
With tears of pure joy and heart breaking fear.

It was not the year I thought it would be but it was surly one heck of a ride. 

 2016!

Here we come!

This year I am going to hit all my goals.

1. Watch my family grow.
2. Have a beautiful healthy baby in July/August
3. Get my house in order
4. Save money each month for our big family vacation next summer.
5. Have a closer relationship with my little sister NeNe
6. Get in shape after I have the baby
7. Grow my home business
8. Have a closer relationship with God
9. Pay off my car
10. Be a better home schooling mom

I have learned in the past not to set too many goals for a the new year. That when I do I never seem to go through with hardly any of them. 
This year I decided to keep it simple and try to stick with the most important things in life. 

My family, my future, and  God!

I am also having my kids make their own list  for this year. 
I want them to learn to set goals in their lives and to work hard to reach those goals. 
 I don't know what this year has to offer my family and I. All I can do is hope, pray and work hard to have the life that I and my family wants. To show my kids that you cant be the person you want to be with out hard work. 

There are so many things I want to teach my kids this year. 
The first step for me is always making a list and deciding what I really want. 

Today is the first step in a long line of  steps I am going to take. I can only hope a year from now I am stand where ever I might be.
Proud of myself for completing all of my goals.

Bring on 2016 and all it has to offer! 







Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Behind The Gates: Fort Leavenworth




This is a warning for anyone who is PCSing to Fort Leavenworth!
From one wifes bad experience to another, I hope you have a better time their than we did. 

In March of this year my husband came home from Korea. 

We made a big move and pcs'd to Fort Leavenworth Kansas only days after he came home. 

I had done so much homework on Fort Leavenworth. 
On the housing, the wives, schools, and the way of life their. 

However the truth behind it all was that it was all just smoke and mirrors. 

With in weeks of getting to Leavenworth the drama leaked into our home. 

Kids coming to our door begging for food and drink. 
( when my children were not even out side playing )

The School allowing trashy books that they allowed my 2nd grader to check out and bring home. 
( the reading level was middle school to high school level ) 

The wives .... the last straw on top of it all. 
Everything I posted on my personal facebook. No matter what it was or why I posted it. I was jumped on for staying everything. 
Everything from homeschooling my children, to being so in love with my husband and even when I had my miscarriages.

I had these wives who thought I was " bitching " and that I should just shut up and do as I am told. Simple because " I was a new wife who had only been married for a year. " 

The bashing went on and on to the point that I started standing up for myself, to the biggest facebook bully of them all. 

I asked her very nicely to " please leave her negative  comments off of my facebook page. "

Then I decided after talking to my husband to simply remove her from my personal facebook page. 
As she and I have never been friends, hadn't seen each other ever in person and had no real relationship. She is the kind of woman who needs tons of friends on facebook. So that she can have something exciting to talk about. Through out her lonely days.

I was trying to end the problem with every status I posted, having to ask her to please not post all her negative comments or opinions on my facebook page. 

For that I had got to see the truth behind why these wives are friendless and have been at the same post for 10+ years. 

This screen shot was sent to me by a few different ladies who where all shocked at what childish length this woman would go to to seek out attention. 




Sadly I have found that most of the wives who backed me up where also the ones who decided to lie. 
Telling all the wives they could get to listen to them. That I posted things on a wives page about all of this when All I did was post a status. 
That was about how unhappy it makes me that I have kids everyday. Coming to my door begging for money, asking for drinks, and fruit snacks. Even though my own children had been sick the whole week. 
Thus they were not out side and if they were I would have given the other kids the same things i give my kids while they are outside. 
It makes me so sad that someone who doesnt even live in the same neighborhood that I had lived. Would want to bash me for something on my personal page. 
It wasnt the first time sense she had bashed me every chance she got on my personal page for everything I posted. 
Going as far as to make fun of my having miscarriages.
I have never met any of these wives face to face. 

I fear for any other wives moving to this post. 
That they will be treat the way I was in the very short time I lived on post. 
After that we bought a house an hour away from post. That  way, hopefully the wives who were going out of their way to try to hurt me. Could not keep doing the things that they were doing. 

After the wives who posted that status  was removed off of my personal facebook page and started her drama and lies about me.

I was removed from every Fort Leavenworth facebook group that there is.
When I asked about why I was removed all I was told was that " I made all of the wives mad when I posted my personal business on one of the public wives pages. That I was not even a Army wife much less a wife of someone stationed on Fort Leavenworth." 
Its sad when I lived on post during all of this that someone so hateful and obsessed over my life would spread such lies about me.
Simply because I would not allow her abuse of myself and my friends to keep going on. I though my personal facebook page was just that. Personal! That I could post and remove any one off of my friends list that I wanted but it turns out. 

That's not true, their are these old Army wives who believe that they run Fort Leavenworth. 


Its sad that just because I am not 40 something years old that someone would try to mess up my marriage, any friendships I had on post. Not to count trying to get her husband to mess up my husbands career. 

For anyone who is thinking of getting stationed their please dont!

If you do and you dont have a choice watch out for the other wives!







Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Maybe Triplets?



Is this real life?

On December 3rd 2015 

At the ER in Kansas City 

The ER ultra sound tech seen 3 sac's meaning that there were 3 babies not just one!

We already have 2 older kids H & J will be 10 & 11 years age difference from the new BABIES!

I went to my doctor on December 8th to check on the babies and have my first appointment of this pregnancy.

Expecting to have a ultra sound that day I was so angry when they refused and told me I had to wait. 

My blood work was done and pee test to prove I am pregnant. I was so angry that even though I went to the ER and confirmed pregnancy the doctor did not care and wanted to do his own test. 

Lucky for me after days of waiting I got my HCG levels back. 

The jump even had the nurse shocked!!

At 16 dpo they were 1701

now they are at 21 dpo a huge 14,956

They more than doubled, in 5 days they went up over 8 times what they were! 

The  ER Tech might just have been right. we might be have triplets!!

I can not wait to officially find out on Monday! hopefully these babies work with us so I will know for sure.

I know at the ER the lady thought she had seen 3 it was just little black blobs so hopefully this time is a better picture. 

Keep us in your prayers! if you have gone through this or are going through this, with any kind of Multiple pregnancy or birth please feel free to comment or email me. I would love other mommies opinions and help! 

(*I know high hcg levels doesn't always mean more than one baby but I think our odds are pretty high. )

Friday, December 11, 2015

The Progress Of My HCG Levels






After 2 miscarriages

Here we are pregnant with another little blessing!

I will be updating 

My HCG levels so far are!

December 3rd, 2015  
16 DPO : 1701  


December 8th, 2015
21 DPO : 14,956

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Another Threatened Miscarriage!


September 2015

oh what a month.

It was an awful month for us, It was our older two kids birthdays along with one of the most difficult things. We have all had to fae this year, after going into the doctors for a threaten miscarriage. There was no baby in the ultra sound at the ER. Nor was there a baby at all in the ultra sound at my obgyn's office a week later. I was heart broken. 
I couldn't drive I couldn't breathe or think I just sat there crying my eyes out while on the phone with my friend Sierra and my husband. 

My husband was away at a training with the Army so he hadn't been home to even comfort me. 

After finding out we were pregnant pretty early on in November we were now facing the same thing we had dealt with last time. Another threatened miscarriage!

There were no words, I just had to see our baby on the ultra sound. I had to hear the number was nice and high unlike last time we went through this. 

I can't handle another loss, I just can't! 

the ultra sound tech was the same lady who did the last ultra sound to tel me that there was no baby.  
She is the sweetest lady and remembered us from last time. 
She helped comfort  us and the second she seen the tiny baby she got just as excited as we got. 

however ....
that was not all she had seen. 

there were 3 little sac's  on the ultra sound
she was shocked but said that it was too early to confirm any of the babies. 

The Doctor came in shortly after she left the room.  He informed me that my HCG  numbers were 1701. At 16 days past ovulation! I have never, just never had numbers that high . that early in pregnancy. 

The baby is doing great according the the ER doctor but there might be 3 babies in there instead of just on one. 
I did have another threatened miscarriage however there was no bleeding this time around. Just pain and I was told I have a uti and that I need to stay laying/sitting down if the pain keeps up until it goes away again. I have to follow up with my OB with in a week.

I am still scared to death that I will miscarry but those numbers have me feeling a little more hopeful that we will have a baby come August 2016!