October 2006 .... I thought I was doing what was best for me and my life at the time. I knew I wouldnt be have sex. However I also knew after what I had been though in the past I didnt want to risk getting pregnant.
At the time I was only thinking about my kids and myself. I felt like I couldnt do what was best for us at the same time as what was best for my soul.
I was young and stupid
I found out about a new birth control option and Lord I wish I had the power and to go back in time. I would find myself and slap the snot out of me because that decision to get a
Mirena IUD!
That was the stupidest thing I felt I have ever in my life done.
For the 7 years I had my Mirena IUD in I was in pain, I had cyst
all the time. I felt sick and pregnant for weeks at a time.
I knew that it was the wrong thing for me, I knew that I should have had it taken out and never put back in ever again. However I didnt listen to myself.
I was scared to death that I would end up with another baby by a dead beat loser who wouldnt help me with anything much less the kids.
Now a year after I had it taken out I still sit here trying to figure out
Why I cant get pregnant. Why after all mine and my husbands efforts to conceive a baby.
Still no baby to speak of. We have had miscarriages and heartache and tear oh lord all the tears we have had.
Now I find myself praying every month hopefully that the test will say positive or that the little line even if its not bright as can be that it will be there for all to see.
I didnt know the side effects when I got the Mirena, I didnt know everything I wish I would have known but now I know. Now I vow to never in my life time to back on birth control for I know the truth behind it. I know that it hurt my body my mind and my soul on so many different levels. I cant never take it back but Lord I pray that the other people out there do their home work.
I hope they truly know what they are getting into and the pain they could have in the future if they ever try to get or want to get pregnant.
I thought it was the right thing to do until I found the amazing man who would be my husband.
The man I knew would be the right person to have a family with.
After years of searching and praying he at last came into my life and here we are.... facing the truth that me might never get to have a child. That our two kids might be our own unless we want to adopt and spend $1000's of dollars on the adoption process. I know Im not alone however its heart breaking
to sit here looking at all these females who are blessed enough to get pregnant.
It seems like everyone I know is getting pregnant and Im sitting here trying to keep myself from crying like a toddler.
I never thought this would happen to me. I thought we would be able to have kids when ever we were ready. When ever we wanted to be able to have kids. Thats how all of these commercials for Mirena make it out. They make people believe that they have the freedom to choose and take the IUD out when ever they want to.
They fail to tell everyone that you might not be able to have kids. You might struggle like we are to try to keep a pregnancy or event o get pregnant at all.
Do your homework , ask around, google it and talk to your doctor and other doctors for that matter.
If you ever want to have kids.... Mirena is NOT that birth control you should be using. Im not saying this as Catholic I am saying this as a female who is facing the truth of the matter that my struggle shouldnt be your struggle.
Check out these links before you get a
MIRENA IUD
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