Threatened Miscarriage .... a newly pregnant woman's fears come to light

      

        I never thought I would hear those words .... not in a million years. I never knew that it was even a " thing " that could happen. 

       Saturday September 5th 2015 I found myself sitting in the waiting room of an ER. Wishing and praying that they would make it all better. My little family was taking a trip to a theme park in Kansas City. Just something fun for us to do all together even though we had just found out that we are expecting another little one. Thus I would not be riding any rides I was only along for the ride and the food. lol  

      My husband so sweetly decided we would go out to lunch after they had road all the rides at the theme park. Sadly that is when everything went oh so very wrong for the baby and I at least. I went into the restroom after feeling slight cramps all day. What I found was honestly one of the times I could feel all my fears coming to life. I found that I was in fact bleeding, not a lot of blood and not bright red blood but enough to scare me. I told my husband and we decided to make a trip to the ER to check on our little one. As we do not yet have a Doctor. 

      After what seemed like forever after we had been taken to the back. All of the test were run and we were waiting on one last thing to finish the work up. An ultrasound to be done so we could " see " our little one. Knowing that we would not be able to see our little one because it was way too early. I was only 3 weeks and 6 days. What we found out was NOT what we thought we would hear. I felt like maybe I was going through a miscarriage again. Maybe if I was lucky the baby would be okay but I honestly did not think that was going to be how it ended. 

     By the grace of God we found out that even though we couldn't see the baby. That I was in fact pregnant however my Hcg levels were very low for how far I was. That lucky for me the bleeding had stopped however they did not know what was going on. They could not tell me if I was in fact losing my baby or not. 
All they could tell me is that I had what they called a " Threatened Miscarriage ." Which is pretty much my body telling me either to slow down or that I am about to lose my baby. 

     They gave me a list of things to do and not to do however I just. I don't understand what happens honestly I just know that in the end I will be spending my days waiting and praying for a blessing. I know that the doctor told me to come back if I can't get into the OBGYN that they are sending me to. That in 3 days I have to have a repeat blood screening done and ultra sound done to see if I lose my baby or not. That if the pain gets worse or the bleeding comes back that I need to go to the ER. 

    Then they sent me on my way and that was it. I just had to go home, try not to stress and wait to see what God has planned. I do not know how to wait. I have never been good at the waiting game so I have been trying to spend my time sleeping and watching tv. Thank God my husband is home for a few days to spend time with me so he is here to help. Deal with the kids and all of the house work. Lucky for him I keep a pretty clean house so there is not much to do but feed the kids and dog. Which for him means that he gets to order food and his problem is solved. 

     .... What I want all of you amazing ladies to know right now is that. I understand what you are going through. I am here for you through every day no matter what you are going through. I have been through a lot in my life time but I know that my baby's life is in Gods hands right now. I know that I will live a stress free life, that I will sit down as much as I can through out the day and I relax and enjoy every day that I have with my little baby every second of every day. 

       The thing that the Doctors don't tell us is that many females go through this. Many females have " Threatened Miscarriages " and they go on to have healthy happy pregnancies. Just because your body is freaking out does not mean that you have to give up on your baby. It means that with some luck every thing will be okay. However if it does not go as planned it is not your fault and there is nothing you could have done differently in order to say your baby. Please don't blame your self , I know I am not the first to say this and I will not be the last. However I know because I know I feel like I am to blame for this on my own life. I just have to keep telling myself that I didn't do this. That I couldn't have stopped it no matter what I did and now comes the awful part of waiting. 

                                                  Be Strong Ladies!

( P.S my hcg levels were 22 at 3 weeks 6 days )

To The Army Wife I Wronged

Dear Hurt Military Spouse, 

        I know it has been a long time sense I have really talked to you. That the last time I half ass attempted it was well in all honestly it was just lies. I was not sorry for how I treated you in any way. I did not feel as if I had truly done anything wrong at that time. I felt that I was in the right as I had just been trying to live my own life. I thought that the dead beat I was with was someone that there could be a future with. Thus I needed to make him happy above all others. I know now how really wrong I was back then. I never thought I would be saying these words as I hadn't thought of you in so long. 

      Yet here I sit understanding more than ever the pain I caused you. The way I threw you off to the side as if you were not worth being a true friend to. I am truly sorry for my actions back then and I wish that I could have a do over. I wish I could go back in time and we could just shake it off and go back to being friends. I had no idea what you were going through at that time and how hard it really is to be a Army Wife. I thought you were just trying to keep me from being friends with anyone else or having a relationship of my own. 

        I know now that I will never get the chance to say I am sorry and fix that broken friendship. However I wish to stop everyone from making the same mistake I made. Being a new Army wife or a Military wife at all if hard. It means that you need to make friends every where you go. Even if you have the best friends in the world " back home"  or at the last duty station you were at. You still need to move forwards and make more friends where ever this crazy life takes you. I failed to be a good friend but there were many reasons why that was. It was not because I am a bad friend or because I simply didn't not care. It was just that I felt like I was less than you. I felt like I didn't have money to blow or time as I had wanted to make sure. That my house was clean, and dishes were done. That there was something to eat and that everything was as it should be. That is what I felt was most important at that time. 

      I wish that I could go back in time and ask you what was going on in your life. What it was like to be a Military Spouse and why you seemed to always want people around you all the time. Maybe then I would have known more about this life and what I was getting into the day after my wedding day. However sadly we can not change the past. All I can do is hope that with this very public letter someone will not make the same mistake. I hope that someone will learn to ask what is going one. To be there for a new wife even if we think we know what is going on in her life. To put our selves out there and try to make some new friends even if we are scared to death. 

        Sometimes being a Military Wife is harder than I thought it would be. Sometimes we just need to suck it up and be a friend to someone who needs one even if she will not admit she needs one. 
Help is something that we all need but few of us are brave enough to ask for it. 



                                            Never Ending Lost Girl, 
                                                        Mrs.M



                 

The True Struggle .... Trying To Get Pregnant.

This issue is VERY dear to my heart as I am at this very moment

Trying to get pregnant with baby # 3. 

It has been so difficult for my husband and I to be able to have another baby. 

After 7 years of being on a Mirena  IUD.

It has been so hard. Harder then I ever thought it could be. 

To the point that we have lost a few babies at this point in our Journey. It has been filled with heartache, pregnancy test and waiting. Praying that we will see those beautiful pink lines. 

As of this very moment I am in the TWW ( Two Week Wait )

period and it is very . 

The TWW is the two week between the time you ovulate and the time you can can get a positive pregnancy test at home. 

Today we are  6 dpo ( days past ovulation ) and well I know that there are so many people who say that we can't take  a test until 14 days after ovulation. However lets get real! What female trying to get pregnant really waiting the full 14 days.

I know that people who are 6 days past ovulation has been blessed enough to get a positive on a Home pregnancy test.  ( not a Bright on but still its there ) 

 I am going to be taking a pregnancy test every morning for the next 4 days. 

I am praying that I am one of those luck few who get a very early positive in these four days. 

We have been full on trying for about 5 months. 

long months that seem to never end. The Cycles where we don't end up pregnant are the hardest on me. I know that is has to be hard on my husband as well however he doesn't show it.

To start with I honestly had no idea what I was doing. 

I have never had to try to get pregnant before and never thought I would be having this problem. 

Things that I didn't know could fill a book honestly. 

Pregnancy Terms To Know

TWW - Two Week Wait

TTC- Trying To Conceive 

DPO - Days Past Ovulation

BD - Baby Dance

BFN - Big Fat Negative

BFP - Big Fat Positive

HTP - Home Pregnancy Test

AF - Aunt Flow

LMP - Last Menstrual Period

EWCM - Egg White Cervical Mucus

CIO - Cry It Out 

BBT - Basal Body Temperature 

SAHM - Stay At Home Mom

POAS - Pee On A Stick

BMS- Baby Making Sex

CB - Cycle Day

CF - Cervical Fluid

CL - Corpus Luteum

CM - Cervical Mucus

CP- Cervical Position

CY - Cycle

DI - Donor Insemination

DP - Dancing Partner ( spouse or Significant other )

FTTA - Fertile Thought To All

FMU - First Morning Urine

HCG - Human Chorionic Gonadotropin ( Pregnancy Hormone )

IF - Infertility 

IUI - Intrauterine Insemination

IVF - In Vitro Fertilization

LH - Luteinizing Hormone

O - Ovulation

OPK - Ovulation Predictor Kit

PCOS (POS ) - Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

S/A - Sperm Analysis

TCOYF - Taking Charge Of Your Fertility 

Back To School Sales!

        The hunt is on!

For new school supplies!

I love this time of year it is beautiful out side. 

The list for all the school supplies and deals coming out.

It is the best time of year to find all of those little things that you 

have been wanting to get and for cheap at that. 

Here is my list Of things I want to get this year. 

Keep in Mind I am pretty new still to this home schooling stuff. 

I am trying to keep my list small, due to the fact that I know that I am lucky enough to have a husband who fully supports me.

He understands that I am new to this and I will need some time to get this homeschooling shopping list perfected.

I know that there are a lot of sales going on between now and the start of school. 
However I am pretty much done for now. I bought  all of the things besides the electric pencil sharpner, chalk boards and chalk. 
 At Walmart.

For a total of $60 and boy was I shocked!

The Places I know are Doing Back To School Sales!
Walmart

Target

Kmart

Staples

Amazon

Operation Home Front - School Supply Give Away


What is on your School Supply List this year?

Are you a new home school family?

Thinking about starting home schooling your kids?

Please feel free to comment, and let me know where you stand and where I am going wrong so far. 

Craving Chick Fil A? .... Chicken Nuggets Ricepe

Can A Girl Get Some Chick Fil A please!

I am about 30 or 40 minutes away from one of my favorite places to eat.  and not to be rude but IT SUCKS! 

I am use to driving right down the road with in 2 miles from my house. 

Thus I decided to learn to make my own chicken nuggets here at home. 

This was the simplest recipe and I honestly don't know if I will ever go out to get them again. Knowing I can make them at home.

Here is what you need.

*  Chicken Breast 

* Italian Bread Crumbs 

* 1 egg  

* Oil

 ( I used Vegetable oil but I am sure you can use any kind you want )

Step 1. 

Cut up the chicken breast into bite size pieces.

Step 2.

pour enough oil in the pan to over the bottom of the pan.  

Step 3. 

Crack the Egg into a bowl

Step 4. 

pour  the bread crumbs into a bowl. A cereal bowl 

will do. Enough to fill the bowl. 

Step 5. 

Place the cut up chicken pieces into the egg, and cover the whole  piece with egg 

Step 6. 

Take the egg dipped chicken and put it in the bowl with the bread crumbs. Make sure to cover the chicken.

( I have allowed my kids put the bread crumbs in a baggie and allowed them to shake the chicken to cover it. It was a great way to get the kids involved in dinner or lunch time. )

Step 7.

Place the chicken from the bread crumb bowl into the hot oil in the pan. and cook until they are done on both sides.

It only takes about 10 minutes for them to get done if that.

 Fast, easy and yummy idea for anyone. 

My kids loved them and I didn't even have the chance to get  a picture of them before their plates were totally clean. 

Enjoy! 

Show Me The Hero .... Caitlyn Jenner?

In 1976 Bruce Jenner became a Olympic Gold Medalist.

Becoming a hero to many of the people who say at home and the lucky ones who sat in the stands watching that amazing moment. 
A moment in time that has changed the lives no only of Bruce Jenner but of so many people. Who pushed through it all to try 
to become one of the greats like Bruce Jenner.

It is heart breaking to know that all of those that use to look up to him. Will no longer get to remember his great day in history. 

Due to the now never ending media crazy events of this year. 

Bruce Jenner is no longer the same person to some of us. 
He is now living his life as a " woman " Ms. Caitlyn Jenner .

I can not sit here and lie to everyone saying that I am happy for him. When I am in fact not. If he wanted to change the body God gave him okay fine. If he wanted to live his life as a female and not a man fine. It is no my life and I can not say that I honestly care about that. 

However all this CRAP yes I said it crap! about how he is a hero?

Are you joking?
Like for real is this a joke?

Being brave enough to face the world as who you believe you have always been is one thing. Sure its brave I guess not that I know anyone who really cares. 

However he has never risked his life,

 he has never fought for our country. 

He has never put on a uniform to protect us all. 
To protect our rights that he so happily pushes down our throats every day.

Acting as if he is a hero and not CORRECTING everyone as he rightfully should. 

The men and women that fight every day to protect us.
The Military members serving past and present.
The fire fighters
The Police officers
These are hero's every day!

The are braver then " Caitlyn Jenner " could ever dream of being.

I get it to so many people he is brave for living his life the way he wants to. However he is a failure in my eyes. He failed to correct people. 
He allowed himself to be called something he in fact is not, well not for changing into a female at least. 

You want to play the hero then go make your self earn the title.
Every day when you wake up you can earn it.
You can help fund those who are the real hero's.
You can stand up for the police officers who deal with getting bashed every day. You can tell the world who the real hero's
are in this country. 
You have lord only knows how many follows and " fans" maybe its time you step up.
Stop being a follower and prove you have earned the right to be a
leader in the world no matter the reason or way.
So 
I Challenge you " Ms. Caitlyn Jenner " To step up.

Be the true Hero people claim you are and show the world who the real hero's are. Show the world who deserves the respect and the title.  Of a Hero in this country.

As a Military Wife who gets the honor to see these hero's every day of my life. 

Be a Hero! Honor A Real Hero!

Simple Cajun Pasta

I love to cook, Really nothing is better then cooking for my family every night though I love to go out as well. 

 My Recipe tonight is very simple, and its something that anyone can make in a matter of 30 mins.

I dislike when people say " I don't cook because it takes too much time." Cooking can be very fun and even can help take the stress out of your life. 

What you need, 

I used 2 boneless skinless chicken breast.(I don't like a lot of meat) 
 1 pound of Penne pasta
Sliced Red peppers.( in a jar because it is fast and easy )
Heavy Whipping Cream ( 1pt )
Mrs. Dash original blend
Cajun spices 
1 bag of Italian Cheese ( 16 oz bag )

* Cut The Chicken ( what ever amount you want to use ) into 
pieces then cook however you normally would cook in the frying pan. ( I use butter but that is just how I am ) 
* Boil your water for your pasta and boil the pasta as you normally would. 
* Once your pasta is boiling start your chicken. 
 ( I use the Mrs. Dash to season the chicken while I cook it. however it is up to you.)

* Once all your Chicken is fully cooked add the peppers 
 ( or anything else you would like, Mushrooms, different colored pepper, tomatoes, onions. )

* Once Everything has been fulled heated pour in your heavy whipping cream. 

* Add Cajun spices to taste. I do not measure the amount I use I just add it until it taste good to me. Not much is needed. 

* Allow it to simmer for a about 4 minutes

* Then add the Whole bag of shredded cheese, slowly stirring it in and allowing it to melt. 

* Once your pasta is done cooking drain it and mix you chicken, cheese , heavy cream mixture into the pot with your drained pasta.

Mix It all together and then pour it into your serving bowl or serve it out of the pot It don't matter. 

I normally serve this pasta with Texas toast because to us that is the best combination. 

My husband is a pretty picky eater  

as are our two children. 

This is one meal I know every time my family will eat with out any problem. 

Enjoy and feel free to comment and let us know how you liked it. 

( I am NOT a pro. Chief I am just a mom trying to cook new and easy meals for my growing family and friends. )